January 2009
27 posts
a decision →
i *think* i’ve finally come to a decision. and it was confirmed by a dream last night. i’m going to switch gears here at the smussyolay. and maybe i’ll wait until march so that going into my 5th year…
let love rule →
this is on lithium on sirius radio right now …. love this.
a weight has been lifted →
it is like throwing off winter coats and hats and walking down the street with a spring in my step, smiling at strangers and holding my head high; i am no longer burdened with scarves and fear of the…
a new day →
it’s over. eight long years. they’re over. they’re done. i don’t know who gets to pack up all of their clothes and knick knacks and personal items, but they’re done. they’re packed and moved out….
the devil is in the details ... or the phobias →
you always hear about foot fetishes, but never about foot *phobias.* i have a friend who is really weird about feet. well, he’s more than weird. i’d go so far as to say he has a mild to medium…
expectations →
part one i do these facebook videos. i was doing them on you tube, but i’m pretty lazy and the facebook video just allows me to upload them straight to the site. with you tube, i’m doing them on…
the most bizarre viral email ever →
back in 1997, when i was new to the internet and the world wide web and email and all of its various working parts, i fell prey to the belief that yes, maybe, if i forwarded this email to enough of…
holy fucking scratch. itch. scratch. →
it’s either one or the other. i swear it’s a vicious cycle. like a lot of these things kind of are. but my skin is so fucking dry and i don’t know if it’s the cheap long underwear or a certain lotion…
my side of the street, my side of the street →
that’s my mantra for the year. and it’s so fucking hard already. there’s a couple of situations that i want changed and i want to run to my new sponsor and say, ‘what do you think i should do about…
Salvation →
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got the book club book today. definitely have plenty to read. looking forward to getting back into the swing of things. just feel like i should blog something here. also really should be off to bed….
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up much earlier than i normally am on a monday. off to an appointment. wish i could be sleeping still for a variety of reasons. wish i had the wherewithal to get to bed much earlier. glad that the…
time to sow new seed →
i have a friend who is six days ‘older’ than me, sobriety wise. his dry date is january 6, 2002. and mine is january 12, 2002. i wrote him an email the other day to congratulate him on his…
YAY! YAY! →
the clark bus (22) and broadway bus (36) are on the bus tracker as of january 26th, g monies!!! YAY!!!!!! and … it’ll be one second before i have something else to complain about in re: the cta…
busy work →
we just got a volunteer. she came in last friday. because i’m a control freak, i’m doing a little bit of prep work so the stuff she does is sort of in line for her when she gets here. anyway, busy…
keep moving, keep moving →
in one of my posts yesterday, i talked about this ongoing struggle i’m having with my current bout with depression and how it’s currently affecting the way i’m interacting with my friends and the way…
lub dub →
wasn’t that always the sound they used for the heart? lub dub, lub dub. my dad’s getting a pacemaker on friday. med-tronic. my friend, bob, who’s an RN, says that’s the best kind. he’d get one if…
no show →
it’s weird. i don’t know what happened. i really was depressed and upset to start off the year. as in chemically so. just not okay. and i was pretty pissed off that no one was understanding and no…
For Your Information →
Mary Flannery O’Connor (March 25, 1925 – August 3, 1964) was an American novelist, short-story writer and essayist. Flannery O’Connor was the only child of Edward F. O’Connor and Regina Cline…
batter up →
bob. your pick. fiction book. book club. you in? do tell.
ala cusack →
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Imogen Heap →
posted it to facebook, and i *know* i’ve posted it here before, too. but hey … i can do what i want. no one is forcing anyone to click on anything.
something something →
thought i’d get the last post out of first place. still not feeling great, but a little better, i suppose. possibly. who knows. it all could turn on a dime again, really. who the fuck am i kidding? …
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sometimes, i don’t believe a word anyone says. revision. what i do believe is this: people are selfish. they do what is best for them. if it is at ALL inconvenient, they don’t go out of their…
ahem. →
it’s january. so .. jezzie. if you still want a pick, it’s yours. fiction. then as far as i can tell*, it’s bob, eric, james, adrian, adam, kimberly and anyone else who wants in on this smussyolay…
sort of ironic? →
finally watched ‘the bucket list,’ which i’ve been carrying around for weeks in my purse/bag/backpack from netflix. i started it last night and just finished it (well, i guess i started it early this…
makes for good blog fodder, if nothing else →
well, you guys get more blog posts when i’m in the grips. so that’s something. i’m depressed. i really hate it. it’s so weird knowing what’s wrong with you and still not being able to fix it. and…